Accidental
by Lea Page
Accidental
I usually get it wrong, looking them up on my own.
I miss crucial features: the bar across the shoulder,
A blush on the cheeks, a curved bill, not straight—
Or is it a beak? What’s the difference? I don’t even know.
I had a neighbor, a repository of such details,
But she moved into town and I didn’t get her
New number. I know where she works, though.
I’ll stop by and say, “What’s that bird…?”
She always knows. The timing is not random. There’s a causal
relationship, she explains, between arrivals and departures. She
herself left our rural stretch of high plain to be closer to the hospital.
Her mother was fragile, and then her husband lost his stomach to cancer.
This morning, I heard geese, blackbirds, chickadees and cranes.
I saw a new bird, whiter than spring snow, a few black markings.
I checked my guide book and seized on the McKay’s Bunting,
But no. The map said they live in Alaska, only in Alaska.
Years ago, we left our home here, driven away by locals who
Made it clear we were still newcomers after fifteen years, but
We missed the sun and sky, and all those birds, who didn’t,
In fact, care what we called them. We have since returned.
Those who stray beyond their normal range are called
Accidentals. They take a wrong migratory turn or blow in
On a storm. Sometimes they hitch a ride—we drove a U-Haul.
Depending on your frame of reference, we are all accidental
On this land. Show me the map that says I don’t belong.
Lea Page’s essays have appeared in The Washington Post, The Rumpus, The Pinch, The Boiler, and Entropy, among others. Her poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Grey Sparrow, Pithead Chapel, and Slipstream. She is also the author of Parenting in the Here and Now (Floris Books, 2015). She lives in rural Montana with her husband and a small circus of semi-domesticated animals.